Pandora Wild Child Read online

  Copyright © 2014 by Sunniva Dee

  Cover design by Clarise Tan of ctcovercreations.com

  Editing by Kim Grenfell

  Interior book design by Caitlin Greer

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  This book is dedicated to my sister, Berit, whom I get to hang out with much too rarely. During our childhood and adolescence, I saw the pain Scheuermann’s disease caused you and how you didn’t let it inhibit you. You were a star back then, and you still are. I love you! Scheuermann’s is your only similarity to Pandora, though. You were never the reckless, crazy girl she is.

  I also dedicate this work to some of the “happy seniles” my family has seen: Great Aunt Alvhild, Great Aunt Gerda, and Grandma Solveig. I smile when I think of you. I know your last years on earth weren’t always easy, but if your sense of humor and creative mischief is what I have to look forward to, then I won’t complain if my turn comes. On a side note, my children probably will. ;-)

  xoxo

  Sunniva

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  0. Quiet

  1. Deepsilver

  2. Hot Mess

  3. First Mistake

  4. Second Mistake

  5. Weekend Fun

  6. Week One

  7. Magic Hands

  8. Damage Control

  9. Problems

  10. Sunday

  11. Homework

  12. Quiet/Turmoil

  13. Alone

  14. Normalcy

  15. Coping

  16. Weak

  17. Emergencies

  18. Travel

  19. Gone

  20. Home

  21. On Task

  22. Thursday

  23. Lost

  24. Good Day

  25. Decisions

  26. To Pieces

  27. Upstairs

  28. Walk of Shame

  29. Impossible

  30. Solutions

  31. Catastrophe

  32. Christmas

  33. Survival Instinct

  34. Visit

  35. Wooed

  36. Sunrise

  37. Broken Doll

  38. Morning

  39. Together

  40. Stars

  41. Midnight

  42. Fixes

  43. Epilogue

  Coming Soon

  Acknowledgments

  About Sunniva Dee

  Other Books by Sunniva Dee

  On his bench, I melt.

  My shield shatters, and I am open to him.

  He always gives me more than the hour I come for, and warm, strong hands slide over my bare skin in exactly the way he’s paid to do.

  Still, there’s an electricity in the room when he’s near. My heart accelerates instead of slowing down. And sometimes, when I can’t help the way my insides clench for him, my breath stutters.

  My response never goes unnoticed; for an instant, his hands freeze. Then, they resume their beautiful dance over me.

  When I am starved for him, I flip on the bench. I shut my eyes because sometimes, sometimes, I am shy. He doesn’t speak, then. Through thin slits under my lashes, I watch him watch me.

  Some days, his breath coasts light over my face before he kisses me. “Pandora,” he whispers, “I can’t do this here.”

  I don’t answer. He stops massaging me, and his hands caress me instead. Glide over the ridges of my ribs until they brush the sides of my breasts.

  I’ve got to get my shit together. My life’s a mess, and I love it, fear it, hate it. I’m driving him crazy. Driving myself crazy. But it is what I allow myself. For these few hours a week are my respite, when his hands quiet my mind.

  Wow. I am free.

  I sweep the small, threadbare room and white concrete walls until I lock eyes with Destiny. She instantly recognizes my state of mind, her brows arching from the doorway.

  “Celebratory pizza’s here. You coming, Pandora?”

  Fucking free!

  “One sec,” I say, crooking a finger at her. She steps inside, but she does it cautiously. Destiny is my conscience, the one who stops me from making disastrous mistakes. The girl saved my ass all through high school, and now she’s careful—she knows better than to trust me.

  “What’re you up to?” she asks, eyeing me. But I just chuckle and grab her arm to pull her with me to the bed.

  “Com’ere.” As much as I tug, she’s not yielding. She yanks free and shakes her head, so I give up and climb on top of the mattress alone. Where’s Mica when I need her? Anyways—

  “Freedom!” I screech. I sound childish as hell, and yet I haven’t reached maximum silliness. “I get to do whatever I want.” The bed frame squeaks when I jump up and down.

  “Oh, Lordy,” Destiny sighs. “Not that your parents ever managed to stop you anyway.”

  “But this is different! Finally, they’re not around to—”

  “—punish you in eerie ways when you sneak out,” Destiny finishes for me.

  No, we’re not going there.

  “You mind? I’m trying to forget, here.”

  “Sorry,” she says, eyes soft and apologetic. “Please continue the bounce fest.”

  And I do. This won’t ruin my mood. Nothing can ruin my mood today.

  “Free!” What a gorgeous word. It launches me straight into bubbling joy again.

  “Someone need a chill pill?” My other friend, Shannon, leans a pale, skinny cheek into the doorjamb as her gaze flicks between Destiny and me. Nothing ruffles Shannon. Seriously, she’s too calm for a redhead. I feel my cheeks contract in the grin I lost a second ago.

  “Screw chill pills,” I say, because contrary to Shannon’s belief, I’ve outgrown my ADHD. She insists it’s why I couldn’t follow the rules at home. Aka the fortress. Aka the prison camp.

  I know I’m wild. I’ve always been wild. Which beats tail-spinning into darkness every time. When I do stuff, my thoughts are on the act. I have a blast, I entertain, and my head takes a break. It’s win-win across the board.

  So maybe I’m not my friend. Maybe there’s a sliver of truth to me being my own enemy, as Destiny likes to point out. My girls have kept me from losing my shit for a decade now. Unlike Father.

  Dad...

  Cue self-induced brain freeze. But enough spin-cycling destructive BS, because now? Now, we’re in the college town of Deepsilver, and this calls for extremes. Perhaps higher education in general does.

  If that’s the case, I’m about to find out for myself, and, and—

  Bring it on!

  I attempt a headstand against the wall on my brand new bed in the apartment I’ll share from here on and into eternity with my three BFFs. Even my cackles sound warbled from my upside-down position. “Where’s my homie?” I puff out.

  “Wifey!” Mica screams as she bounces into my room. “You went all euphoric without me? What?”

  For an instant, her golden curls fly into a mushroom cloud around her head before she crashes into me, squashing my perfect gymnast pose and making me oomph.

  “Pizza’s getting cold,” Destiny states, unimpressed.


  “Nu-huh,” Micaela sings. “Plus, here’s the plan: we’re having food, and then—then—we’re going out.”

  Her answer coincides with Destiny’s expected responses, “we just got here,” and “let’s unpack and watch a movie.”

  Mica is a genius, though, and she will prevail.

  “Heck yeah,” I squeal.

  I adore Destiny. Really, I do, and it’s not that I don’t hear her. Just, I might not necessarily pay attention.

  “I love you to death, Destiny,” I manage from underneath the skin and bones and hair that is Mica.

  “Hey, I was doing fist pumps with your limbs, here,” Mica objects when I twist free.

  Destiny’s black mane shines under my ceiling light—kudos to her somewhat Chinese heritage. She rolls her eyes at me. “Which is why you listen to me always.”

  Shannon does one of the slow, deliberate headshakes most people don’t notice. It means she’s given up on you.

  “Pandora and Mica,” she begins. I’m not up for whatever she’s got in store. It’s a bad sign when she skips her nickname for me, “Pan,” so I jet past her into the bathroom. Soon, she’ll take Destiny’s side and become all motherly and dry and boring.

  “Anyways,” I chirp as I slam the door behind my sister-in-arms, Mica, who narrowly slides in with me. She whirls to the mirror and swipes my cosmetic bag from the sink.

  “Makeup?” Mica thrusts a powder brush in my face, and I nod. We giggle and ignore the grumbled exchange sieving in from the den.

  “Hey, Pandora?” Shannon calls.

  “What?”

  “I’ve got your container of light bulbs here. You want it?”

  Mica snorts, powder drizzling over the faucet in slow motion. “Very clever,” she says out loud. “Isn’t she, Pandora? Like you can’t lock yourself into a bathroom without spares.”

  I scan the bathroom, a fine row of goose bumps spreading on my neck. Mica meets my stare. “Hey, just kidding, kiddo.”

  What are the odds that all the lights would go out at once? Zero to none, right? Ceiling light: two rows of fluorescent tubes. Check. Mirror lights—freaking theater dressing-room-style with eight bulbs above the top frame. Then, there’s the chandelier hanging over the bathtub.

  “Here,” Mica continues, poking my nose with an eyelash curler, diverting me. She’s good at that. “We’re fine, thanks,” she yells to Shannon. “Pandora says to put her precious light bulbs on her bed. This room has twenty-one that work. We ain’t openin’,” she drawls.

  I huff out a breath, shoulders relaxing.

  When we leave the bathroom, we find Destiny and Shannon all prettied up too. They often take the path of least resistance with us, because in Destiny’s words: “There’s no escaping the Pan-and-Mica tornado.”

  In the cab to what Shannon calls “the party street,” I allow two slices of cold pizza to lump their way down my throat. Destiny whips out paper towels; she’s always prepared, I swear.

  “Thanks,” I manage while swallowing the last too-big, half-chewed chunk of dough. “So any specific place we’re going to on this party street?”

  “Uh-huh! We’re going to our new haunt!” Mica claps her hands and wraps herself around my arm, squirming with excitement.

  “Interesting. We have a ‘haunt’ already?”

  “Sure do!” She nods her chin hard into my muscle while I try to shrug her off me.

  “Which is?”

  “Smother, according to Siri.” She flashes me her iPhone.

  I catch the driver’s blank expression in the mirror.

  Shannon tips her head up, happy. What’s interesting about Shannon is that she’s a Libra—her excuse for changing her mind nonstop. With coffee-colored irises sparkling with enthusiasm, I can tell she’s a hundred percent in now. “I read about the place before you made us cross the country to live here,” she explains. “It’s supposed to be a total hotbed for hunky seniors.”

  I high-five her, and Destiny groans, “Why am I doing this?”

  “’Cause you’re whipped?” I suggest. Mica snakes a narrow arm around Destiny as well and tightens her grip on the two of us. For a fairy-sized girl, she’s damn strong.

  “What Pan said,” she purrs in a low, seductive voice. The taxi driver’s stare snaps to Mica, studying her.

  Eyes on the road, dude.

  We come to a halt at the entry of a gloomy alleyway, and… I’m not sure I’d deem this a “party street.” I can’t help tittering at the eeriness surrounding us. A recent rainfall has littered the frayed asphalt with moisture, lending an oily feel to the darkness.

  “Mm, this it?” Mica asks.

  “Yes, ma’am.” The driver indicates a retro neon sign spelling out “SMOTHER” halfway down the road.

  I take in the pink light bulb reflecting off the head of a bald bouncer. With thick arms crossed over his chest, he examines us as we spill out of the cab. I realize that no one else clamors to get into his little establishment.

  God, my parents would have flipped out over this place. My old, strict, and really fucking prim parents.

  My phone buzzes in my pocket.

  “Goddammit,” I mutter, knowing.

  “Mom checking on the heiress? Or Dad this time?” Shannon smirks at me. I fumble to get the piece of junk out of my skinny jeans.

  Stupid freaking…

  “Listen to me,” Destiny says, insistent. “If you just pick up once and tell them you’re fine, they’ll back off. You should have called them as soon as we arrived tonight.”

  “Right, because checking in every four hours is normal when your daughter’s in college and about to turn twenty. Every. Four. Hours.”

  “At least they let you come with us instead of driving you themselves. And your father could’ve insisted you stay in town for college. Remember they threatened that?”

  “Whatever,” I puff out.

  “You’re here on their dime too.”

  What a low blow—Jesus! Aren’t we supposed to enjoy ourselves? Forget that I’ve spent years in nothing short of a jail?

  The heiress. Yeah, right.

  “Shut up, Destiny.”

  My iPhone takes forever to blink off. God knows why I brought the thing in the first place. I should have left it at the apartment. The only ones with an urge to call tonight would be the parentals anyway.

  I breathe out as my gaze meets Micaela’s. For a moment, her eyes glitter with understanding.

  “Yeah! Time to party,” she growls, and I adore her for changing the subject. Narrowly avoiding a puddle, she latches onto me so as not to fall. My formerly delirious mood floods back in.

  “Absobelutely! Fake IDs?” I stage-whisper to Shannon, our tour hostess.

  “Ah, Pan—shush,” Destiny hisses, which Mica finds abnormally funny. She doubles over, howling with laughter.

  The bouncer must be deaf; we’re so close, a normal person would hear every word. Or maybe he needs customers? Wait, maybe he doesn’t give a shit. He barely glances at the IDs Shannon hands him before shooing us inside.

  Lazy spotlights morph from dirty green into reds along the ceiling. The bar occupies the entire right wall of the room, its bottles and glasses alive with the shifting illumination. They speak my language, beckoning me closer.

  Behind the counter, a blonde girl shakes a drink mixer, the sound nonexistent inside the blanketing music. Slow dubstep throbs around me, vibrating with me. Making my heart speed up and follow the rhythm. I instantly want more. And faster.

  A small D.J. booth hovers a few feet above the floor against another wall. Its matte black color is meant to make it disappear, but I have no problem distinguishing the guy bobbing his head up there, headphones half on while he calmly scours his underlings.

  To our surprise, Smother is crowded. I grab Shannon’s arm and haul her across the tiny dance floor with Mica and Destiny trailing close. The guy bartender is the best bet for us, I decide, in case they card at the bar too; in my experience, men spend less time on that
stuff.

  “Four tequila shots!” I squeal out while Destiny objects.

  “Make them double!” Mica backs me up, and I high-five her in agreement. Thankfully, Shannon is still with us—as in, for now she hasn’t Libra’d out of consent. To be on the safe side, though, I add, “And peanuts—and four diet Cokes.”

  We appropriate a tall, round bar table by the dance floor, and my world just became perfect. I sway to the music, rocking the barstool with me as we comment on the clientele. Yes. Shannon was right. Lots of hot seniors.

  Christian, the bartender, drops by to exchange our shots for new doubles. “From that table,” he says, snapping his fingers toward a couple of hipsters covered in beards over by the exit. Mica waves at them, and one of them winks in acknowledgment.

  This, right here, is the first day of the rest of my life. Hell yes.

  Fuck, I’m so tired. I’ve worked nonstop since school let out in June, and I won’t be working any less once my last year in college starts up either. Two more days until that happens.

  As a future physiotherapist, I’m lucky to get any job in this shithole, but sometimes the odd hours at the spa drive me nuts. I need the money, though. The owner and my benefactor, Miss Geraldine from Hyde Park, London, has incredible business talent. Three months ago, she decided to branch out and specialize in cheap, after-hours massage for worn-out workaholics. Since then, we’ve been swamped every damn day between five and eleven p.m.

  The missus likes me. And whenever she wants me to, I like her right back. Usually against the fridge or the table in the kitchenette of the Elysium Spa. She prefers young, handsome guys, she says, and she likes it raw. I tell her that’s fine, because I like women.

  Tonight we were too busy to play. A new hire left us hanging, so the three of us who showed up had to service all. When this happens, we compensate by working our clients harder and cutting down each session by a few minutes. If you leave them dazed enough, they don’t keep track of time.

  It’s one a.m., and I’m done loosening my own tense muscles at Nonstop Fitness. Thank God it’s Saturday tomorrow; I’ve got the day off, and now I’m ready for a beer. No, I’m craving a beer. I’m about to pass the entrance to Jones Street on my way home, but an entwined couple stumbles out of Smother, leaving the music to burst out freely. Haven’t seen Christian in a while. I think I’ll grab that drink inside.